- I want (in my mind at least) to spend time with you, but some things stop me.
- I do not know what to read, what to write, what to listen to. I want you to meet me where I am at. But there have been times that spending time with you was dry and boring. I am scared of that happening again because that makes me mad at you.
- But if I go to you in desperation, knowing that I need you more than anything, wanting to pray for people- then you should meet with me, right? There may be a lot of silent sitting...
That is how I want to feel everyday. Desperate for you. Spending time with you is the most important and best thing in life. Yet there are still somethings that hold me back.
- The world pulls me away. I would rather get other stuff done, rather go do something fun. My flesh too- I do not want to sit and get quiet, to become vulnerable by placing my heart at your feet.
- These are good things to recognize as distractions and to resist. But only through the Spirit's help.
I don't have the answers. I desperately need God's help.
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