control

I live like I am on my own, like the weight of all life's decisions rest on my shoulders.  I forget that I have a lover that will help guide me.  And I forget:


          Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon 
          you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  
          For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.  Matthew 11:28-30


I need to let go, let God guide me and see where I end up.  I cannot control everything or have everything be perfect.  But God has the best for me, even though that includes suffering.  

I think that where I live will make me happy.  I think that what I am doing will make me happy.  I think that my relationships (**a relationship**) will make me happy.  But these things will fall short.  And they are not the point of life.  I need to find my fulfillment in you.  I need to find my value in you.  All else is fleeting.

I leave you with these lyrics that define what I need to live in.

God is my shepherd
I won't be wanting
I won't be wanting
He makes me rest
In fields of green
With quite streams
Even though I walk
Through the valley
Of death and dying
I will not fear
'Cause you are with me
You are with me

Your shepherd staff
Comforts me
You are my feast
In the presence of enemy
Surely goodness
Follow me
Follow me
In the house of God, forever


"House of God, Forever" by Jon Foreman
Psalm 23 :)